What hurts most was being so close
It's not what you think it was. It's NOT. I have found out the answer, thanks for telling me. But your reply just made me lose another person that I thought should understand me the best. I doubt there's anyone left.

Is it because you lost her? That's why you've changed? We want to help you, we want to cheer you up. But why is it that you can never smile like before? Why did you choose to confide in somebody that you hated so much in the past over us? Is it because both of you share the same experience that's why? You look so fake to me now. I know you've dealt a heavy blow, but why is it that I can't see that as a reason over all these. Sorry, I don't know. And I just want to let you know that it's not what you think, I was not referring to you. I knew you weren't there for me that day, but I understand. You probably don't have time for me now might be what I thought at that time, but I realised I was wrong. Why makes you think that? Why do you doubt how important you're to me? Even if you're invisible, I can still see you no matter what. I am not ignoring you, it's just that there's nothing I can do to help you. Remembering one's birthday is not the only way of showing how much you care and love someone, it's through all the actions and all the things that you've done for her.

I thought I understand you, but you've simply proved me wrong.
Please try and get on and if you've really found a true friendship, I will be glad for you, but if not, I hope you don't stay in that trapped world forever.

And having so much to say.

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