Apparently, I do not know the meaning of on hiatus. But all I know is that if I am not going to pour out here, I am just gonna go crazy any minute.

Almost the whole class has been affected with Trojan. The person that started it first already got it cleared and she's out of this whole business. We are left in it, stuck there, left to die. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I am really feeling so bloody pissed now, so bear with the language I'm using.

Why are you giving me all that empty promises? I had enough, really enough this time. Nothing that you do is ever going to change my mind. Those few words hit me heavily. I thought things over. You are not who I used to know anymore. Somehow, I feel that I have already lost you and you will never return anymore. If you ever get to know of a friend named ______ one fine day, please help me bring her back. I don't want to change my impression towards you. To me, you like always be what you were in the past. I don't want to replace that with what you are now. I will choose to remember the old you, even you may no longer exist anymore. I will always remember all that you have done for me.

I am going crazy with the heavy workload we have. Had just pathetic 3 hours of sleep last night. Chinese Test tomorrow, Maths Common Test, Chinese Oral and Geography Test next week. When can this ever come to a stop? E-learning made things even worse. It was such a failure, even the field trip to Kampong Glam yesterday. The stupid vodafone just won't work.

SUCKERRS, GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW.

I'm just a total failure. Can you please make me disappear for now? I really had enough. I don't have the strength to carry on what I'm going through now. I have a batch of wonderful friends to rely on, but I know they have their own problems too. I really don't want to bother them with all these stupid things. I wanna handle this my on my own cause I know I have always been depending too much on others. Furthermore, there's nothing much they can do to help honestly, afterall, everything's still up to you. But this is really too much for me. God, please tell me what's the best way out. I think I can do it with a break.

Thanks Huiyan for listening to all my crap on our lunch date;
Queenie and OKK for your help yesterday.

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